Everthing I want Is here With Me.

Credits goes to mydin for the 3d specs.

A day with syafiq family's was a blast day ever. I had soo much laughter with him. Suposingly syafiq the one who suppose to tutor me but ended up her second sis the one who tutor me the most. She helping me with my weakest topic of all maths topics. She teaches me Trigonomotory (sorry for the wrong spelling) while he teach me factorisation and stuff. Quite complicated actually but I can understand the way they both teaching me. I'm using 4 Normal-academic book as it nearly equivalent to Sec 4Nt. I left his house around 6 to meet up the Ct.CO. I miss them soo much mann. Then I headed home around 8.

That's all for today. stay tune for the next post. bye

I'm just Izhar; Saturday, February 28, 2009

Today school as-pernormal, nothing interesting happend just missing someone lately. I guess there's one incident happen after school at Eastpoint after we had lunch at Banquet which made me really fired-up. But everything is fine now. I'm okay with it. Finally I get a chance meet up the Dome-fam. It's been so long since I break with them. Syafiq wants to tutor me tomorrow, so I hafta get ready all my stuff. It's like finally I can meet him. I miss him soo much

It's my special day with her as it is my 10 monthsary with her. I wish I could just rewind back and treated her better. I gotta live with regret. If i could have just one more chance to show her how much I still need her. I guess I'm too late now. I deserve it after all for leaving her b'coz of jealousy.

stay tune for the next post. bbye,

I'm just Izhar; Friday, February 27, 2009

Finally I get my blog done, all thanks to my dearest aunt. Thanks alott nisyaaa. I owe one.
Right now, I'm back with single life again. Lovelife put aside, education comes first as this year is my only chance to impress my dad. He really have high expectations on me, so i hafta live up to his expectations. It's for my own future, I got whatever it takes to make it successful even sometimes I hafta sacarifies it. And yea, Syafiq willing to tutor me every Saturday, It's freee=). I love him and I miss him soo badly. Last time I met him was the time when he celebrated my b'day. He have been my god brother since last year mann. Today remedial was wacked coz I almost get fired up mann. Sorry for the harsh word I said to you. I just need to focus on my studies. After common test finally we gonna start our practice for Teacher's day concert. Cant wait to perform. Lastly, I miss the breaking with the Dome-Fam.

Bby, I finally can cope with my studies, right now I'm left with you, I'll be right here waiting okay.

Stay tune for the next post aite. bye

I'm just Izhar; Thursday, February 26, 2009

I'm done updating about my lovelife, so I wont be updating about it. Let's move on. Finally I finished my CPA coursework, now I'm left with DNT coursework. My Dnt design not too difficult as I'm making a face thingy. I think it should take me about 2 weeks to get the product done. I miss the pink psp and the ear-phone mann. I guess back to my loudspeaker then. Finally, I get to *Burp* infront of elly face like she always did to me and mydin. So disgusting but It's fun. I'm speechless now, so stay tune for the next post aite.

Can't belive youre moving on soo fast, I'm proud of you

I'm just Izhar; Tuesday, February 24, 2009

It never crossed my mind at all. It's what I tell myself.

What we had has come and gone. You're better off with someone else.

It's for the best, I know it is.

But I see you. Sometimes I try to hide What I feel inside,

And I turn around. You're with him now. I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget. Don't remind me, I'm not over it.

Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth. I'm just a little too not over you.

Memories, supposed to fade. What's wrong with my heart?

Shake it off, let it go. Didn't think it'd be this hard.

Should be strong, movin' on. But I see you.

Sometimes I try to hide What I feel inside.

And I turn around, You're with him now.

I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget. Don't remind me, I'm not over it.

Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth. I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said, No way to take it all back

Now I'm on my own

How I let you go, I'll never understand.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.

Tell me why, I can't forget about her. She had been in my heart eversince 27th April 2008 when I asked her " will you accept my love" . I can't seems to get her out of my mind. I need someone to share my pain to share my tears. Now I'm on my own, I hafta bare my pain alone and do my things alone. I'll never understand anymore. If you see my baby, just tell her I miss her smile.=(

Stay tune for the next post.

I'm just Izhar; Sunday, February 22, 2009

Credits goes to elly for taking this picture

"Never thought it hurts me.I feel like somebody dropped a ton of bricks on my stomach . I can't eat or sleep and it's hurts me so deep. I heard people talk about it and laugh like it'll never happened to me. Now look at me, It cause me see how quick karma comes around. Who says a man is supposed to cry. Wish I can crawl under a rock somewhere and just die coz I'm just want the pain to go away. This wasn't what I wanted to be a teenage boy in misery. I look back a thousand times can't belive this happend to me. Why can't you understand my pain, how can I explain. Why can't it be like the way it were when we first met when we're happily together. It's too late, I choose to leave. Eventhough we're not together, my love, smile will reach you. How I wish I could just hear your voice, hug you, kiss you once more. I won't give my heart away to any other girls, I'm waiting for you to sort things with him. I'm done with my lovelife. Let's get in to my life".

I went to parent's teacher comference this morning with my mom. Had a principal talk then the lousy stress management talk which hold us 40 inutes of my time sitting down at uncomforble chair. I shall end my post here. Stay tune for the next post aite.

I'm just Izhar; Saturday, February 21, 2009

I miss this time when we had the bobini outing's at Douhby ghaut I think. WE watched the movie " Hungry Ghost Festival" which is so regretful. haaha. kdding2. Actually I had alot of fun with them. I miss going outing with them. When our next outing!!! Elly and mydin!!

I felt so different lately and I dont know why. Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish. To understand how much we are in need and to pulverize my carelessness and lust. I wish I had that moment back again. I' done with this. Now lets get into my life.

Whenever there's a dance session, something will stop me from going there for example today, Supposingly, I'm going dome today but my dad last minute wanna spent time as a family so I have no choice but to follow him. Apparently we went to courts, my brother finally gets the GTA 4 game that he really wanted. Then off to Simpang bedok. Then finally home sweet home. That's all for today. Stay tune for the next post.

I'm just Izhar; Friday, February 20, 2009

There's two special event happend on 3 febuary. It's Arip selamatzz b'day and in class Mr Ho conducted some experiment for us to enjoy. We celebrating arip's b'day by treat him to Seoul Garden. Lastlt, Happy B'day Arip.

I'm just Izhar; Tuesday, February 03, 2009